September 26, 2009

25 Things

1. I enjoy being by myself, but only if I have reassurance that someone would be by my side if I asked them to.

2. I have major social anxiety, and I am not open about it because I don’t like to be judged.

3. I secretly get depressed a lot more than I let off to myself and others, and I have a feeling I know why but it’s never easy.

4. I can’t survive very long without a therapist (right now) or doing something absolutely amazing for myself— like traveling to a new place.

5. I talk better to elderly people than I do to people my own age.

6. I believe in god, but only because I don’t always know what to believe. I am agnostic, and truly spiritual… I don’t see how we are alone, I can’t comprehend it. I believe whole heartedly in our own “god”.

7. I want a tattoo on my back that says Life Is Poetry, then another one below it that says Faith, then another one on my foot of two flowers- one dark, one light holding each other, one bigger than the other.

8. I fall in love way too easily, but it doesn’t happen very often at all. I can never tell them either. I get into “relationships” easier than I fall in love.

9. I talk in symbols, and sometimes I fear that people take me too literally—- like when I talk about my gemini moon… It’s a way I’m basically saying that I have two sides. One is a mess, and one is a flying horse. Can you guess which one I listen to more?

10. I heart deep conversations, fate, talk of destiny even though I don’t always beleive in the latter.

11. Despite what I may have made these things sound like so far, I believe in myself.

12. Heartbreak gets me going, makes me stronger (after like a year of recovery)

13. I would love to say my goals keep me on track, and keep me strong… so I’m going to.

14. I couldn’t thrive without garlic (like if it all disappeared)… but I suppose I would choose another ingredient if that were truly the case.

15. I still love the Red Hot Chili Peppers, but I hardly listen to them anymore.

16. I think the juxtaposition of Tori Amos, Bjork, and Smashing Pumpkins dude is my soul mate… I’m sure you may have heard that or something similar before, but I claim it right now! Ha!

17. My alter ego is called Tiffany.

18. I overally enjoy Taco Bell gordita crunches and only one person knows but I’m not sure if she’s noticed to the degree.

19. I fantasize like all the time.

20. I read my horoscope more than I’d like to admit.

21. I love white wine. I love chocolate. I love them together.

22. If I couldn’t sing, I’d like to say I’d jump out a window but I think I’d probably develop another interest.

23. I am passionate about beauty.

24. I secretly wish my name was December.

25. I feel satisfied when I’ve finished something I told myself I couldn’t over and over again.

26. I usually start with negative and move up.