The Whoa’s… and Woot’s!
Indecision….. has left me feeling that perhaps I am not making the right choice about where to go to college. But it is important, truly important to review all of my options before making a firm choice. The only difficulty I have had with this one is the amount of confidence I put into one plan before realizing that, oh, there was a third plan that I did not consider enough because it did not deem fit for what i really wanted to get out of my life change. (Which is going to University.) Well, my pa is right… that I should make up my mind and stick to it. But I knew something wasn’t right when I started to feel pretty down about the fact that everything was sorted out and I just had to wait. Wait for Unversity to start, and also be stuck with feeling like I might be inadequate for it. Yes, I’ve made it through some pretty tough circumstances, as well as taken myself through some very difficult course work. But University! I mean, my goodness… UC work- papers, midterms, finals… Do I really have the courage to commit myself to that, when I left high school early?
Self-doubt: It stems from this. I frankly, have had enough of this.
Let me start over now that I have expressed my thoughts a little bit more… before proceeding.
Self-doubt: I have no reason to doubt my abilities. I am strong, I am brave, I am opinionated but throughful. I am ready to take on most tasks; diving head in. I am careful but passionate. I quite often encompass to opposing forces like that, but what I now realize is that they can pretty harmoniously coincide… I mean, careful but passionate? Isn’t that great with balance?
This post was about ME. All about ME.
2 years ago